Grateful!

I just wanted to say how very grateful I am to everyone for their love, prayers, and kindness during this sad time...

The flowers brighten my day :)!

The girl time was awesome... and the fingers and toes still look good :)

I am reminded how much people are willing to reach out and strive to make a difference, even in the littlest ways! Thanks to all for any part you have had (meals too, so sweet to feed me and my family)! I am in awe of friends and family! Baby Boy is still moving like a good little boy should! I am amazed at my blessings... even when they seem small, they are important!

Loss

I'm not sure how to say what I'm going to say, but I wanted to document what I'm feeling... Here goes

I had a follow up with my specialist yesterday. They were going to do heart tests and follow up on the triplet dissolving. The tech found the baby B (boy) and went to work on the tests. After some great shots of him she went to do baby A. I also mentioned about the triplet so she stopped and looked at my chart and then went to ask the Dr. a question. The Dr. came into the room and started up with the ultrasound. I didn't say anything nor did she.

After a minute of looking around with the babies she had to tell me that Baby A is no longer living. I guess she passed away about a week ago and her body is compressing and dissolving. That was definitely not the news I was expecting to hear. I had a few suspicions that things weren't normal, but nothing that I would think she had died.

Jeff and I are both very sad. It was not a fun thing to lose our little baby girl. It is a loss with a bit of happiness tied to it since baby boy is doing really well. They are concerned about why I lost the baby. They are doing blood work to look for clotting disorders or such that would suddenly cause me to lose a baby. I am now concerned for my little boy. I would hate to lose both twins. After having to lose one, explain that to our kids, and then to lose the other... ugh! I hope if something is going on we can get on top of it and help this pregnancy along without further complications.

Losing something you were really expecting and planning for (especially something so exciting as a baby) is really hard. This is my first experience (hopefully my last) with miscarriage and I am in awe of my other children and the easy pregnancies those were. I'm sure this will turn out right in the end and that we are being watched over and cared for. I love my children. I love being a mom. I am happy to welcome little spirits to our family. I am sad to not get to add 2, but still so happy to be keeping our little boy! I am so grateful for every little kick that our little boy gives me... I never thought those kicks could bring such joy :).

Thanks to all for their love and support! I am grateful for wonderful family and friends during these trying times.

Kids Rock!

Grant had his kindergarten music program last night entitled "Kids Rock!" He did such a great job! The pics aren't that great since we weren't sitting that close - sorry.



During one of the songs Grant's class got to hold a green streamer. He was the tallest in his class and was happy to be holding his higher than the kid next to him (I think they were having their own competition).




Talmage knew a couple of the songs (because they were PE songs) and so he was doing the actions in the row with us. It was very cute and Jeff snuck some pics!

The song was Lonesome Trail - here he is howling like a coyote.




Here he is trying to do the jumping like a jack rabbit, without making a big scene. Too funny!




It was a fun night and so fun to see my little Kindergartner growing up! This is my child that never liked singing or being in front of people. He now will sing the songs at home. I saw him singing all of the songs for the program as well as doing most of the actions too. It's so great to see him participating and enjoying music!

Wait for it...

There are some things in life that we so desire and feel that are so close within our reach. Often though, we don't understand why we can't have what we want when we want it.



As we wait and have patience the circumstances can change and what we desire comes into grasp!





Oh what great joy of getting what we desire after having to wait for it!





I think sometimes we end up stuck in the frustrated stage and the joy of receiving what we want is lost. Mhari was very upset that her balloon was stuck on the air vent (up flow for the heater) and came to tell me about her balloon. I knew it would come down and it was interesting to watch her and reassure her that the balloon would come down. Maybe in life we need to depend more on the reassurances of those with better understanding - our parents, friends, and especially our Heavenly Father. Just because we don't get what we want when we want it doesn't mean that we won't receive what we need, in the appointed time.

Life's lessons from my 2 year old :)

A fun visit and some hard work!

I had a great time with my mom in town. It was nice for her to take a break from her busy life and spend some time hanging out and playing with the grand kids!

I did say that I would get a picture of my mom in the shirts I made her for Christmas. Well, here is proof that it fits! This is the one she brought and I think it worked out well :).



The kids really had a great time hanging out with Grandma!
Boys and Grandma before school.



Girls and Grandma (in new dresses, from grandma) after the boys headed out to school :).



It was great to have my mom around to visit with, but man if we didn't get some hard work accomplished! She brought a suitcase full of material, batting, and thread. That turned into 2 burp clothes, 4 baby quilts, 4 baby receiving blankets, and 4 kid quilts! Man all that pinning, tying, and sewing kept us pretty busy! We finished up the last baby quilts the morning before she left. They turned out great and it's great to have more blankets for the new little ones! I must say that our backs were pretty sore from all that hard work. It was all worth it though!

Oh, and the big kids love their new blankets too! It's a good thing we did theirs first!

Snow day!!

Snow was fore casted for today... I don't know if I ever believe our weather so I didn't think much of it. The girls came in this morning telling me it was snowing! Yay, a snow day! Well, not for the boys, they still had to go to school. It's cancelled for tomorrow though so that's wonderful!

It just kept snowing... more for tonight too!

So beautiful!


The hens didn't want to come out. Goldy braved it, but she wanted to go back home too! Here are her tracks... too cute!



With all this snow, we decided to make a huge snowman! I rolled the bottom ball. I got my exercise for today!



Talmage did the head! Grant did the body and Jeff did the lifting (not pictured).



Cute Mhari!

Grant with snow!

Snow ball fight!

We had a great time together in the snow! Jeff was out of class and the boys were home from school! Official snow day for the boys tomorrow - no school!

After all the fun outside we made snow ice cream! Great snow day treat - even if it was a little cold!

This is the most days of snow I've seen during 1 winter! The kids have really enjoyed it too!

Stock Yard fun!

This year we made it out to the annual Stock Show! The boys get a free ticket and a day off from school for the event (which I forgot their ticket, bummer) and so with my mom visiting we ventured out!

There was so much there and the kids had a fabulous time! I took more photos than this, but wanted to narrow it down for the post :). The petting zoo area was so great! The animals were so friendly and petable! Mhari would try to get the sleeping ones up and walking around. It was too funny (she was too fast for the camera though). When we left the stock show the line for the petting zoo was huge, so glad we started there!

Here is Mhari with the goats. She petted everything though!



There was one grey bunny out and it was so soft! Here is Grant and the bunny.



There were tiny pygmy goats (that's my guess anyway) too! They were so cute! Here is Sandra and the little goat.



After we had been "petting" a while Talmage came over and said "Mommy they have Scottish Highland Cattle!" It took me a minute to figure out what he was saying (because he kept turning his head and the words muttered together), but once I got it I said "Oh, a cew!" (that's the way it's pronounced anyway) - it was so fun to see a baby cew close up!



It was so soft and fluffy! The kids really enjoyed petting it! Jeff really wants to own one some day... we'll see if we really turn into farmers ;).
Talmage and the cew!



Then we went down to the animal barns. We saw lots of pigs! One guy even picked up the kids and put them in the stall with his pig so they could pet it! Then we saw mother animals and their babies (ran into a friend from school) and made it over to the agriculture education area. Behind that was the bunnies - so many bunnies! Another guy there got his bunny out so the kids could pet it. Everyone was getting ready for the bunny auction the next day. There were a lot more animals (cattle, horses, etc) that we didn't take the time to walk over and see. I was tired and it was lunch time so we had a picnic before finishing our day.

The last event was the midway carnival area. Grandma was nice enough to buy tickets for the kids to go on some rides. They had a great time! When we were down to our last ticket a nice man gave us their left overs - since they were leaving. That doubled the rides for the kids. So much fun!!!

Mhari, Grandma, and Grant on the carousel.

Talmage on the rooster (he called it a hen)!

Driving cars! - Grant, Mhari, and Sandra

Sandra riding the dragon!

Talmage is inside that huge bear!

I'm so glad we went! The kids had a great time and I was glad to have my mom there to help out, but enjoy the stock show too! I must admit that I felt like a city girl with all these true cowboys all over the place :)!